That's not me!

Been really a while tho. I just found out about something that I am really shocked about.

 

Really. I am shocked. 

I still remember those days the first time I set up my account on both Researchgate and LinkedIn platforms where people can really find the info about someone by only 'google' their names. I decided to have one for the purpose of networking. I knew the consequences of having those accounts with my real name on it. Finally, it happens.

But this is another story that is just related to each other (I can't reveal too much about this. This is sensitive issue).

Please, please and please bear in mind that..

I do not belong to any other groups on any social media platform with any reasons and agenda of the groups created be it religions, politics, sports activities' matters and the list goes on.. via (WhatsApp, FB, IG, Twitter and etc.)...

Nor do I involve and text any kind of messages with anyone or anybody in that particular groups that you or they have created and added.

 

And this is real. I have nothing to do with you or them. At all.

 

My apologise. I don't mean to be rude but I don't think that I have the time to text someone I don't know or reply the text of them all. And I am not even interested to know each of them for whatever reasons there could be. 

And I hope the above matter explains.

 

I don't know you, I don't know them and I have got nothing to do with you or even them. Trust me.

 

So, if you happen to be here and see this, please... believe me. 'That's not me'.

Side Note 1: I have never revealed my link of blog on any other media platforms except Researchgate, LinkedIn, Facebook, Instagram and WhatsApp. In other words, people can find me only through these platforms. Please be noted that my blog link provided on WhatsApp only can be seen by my contacts.  I don't really like to be in groups on WhatsApps. You have got to believe me on this. I am not even a silent reader in certain groups.

 

Side Note 2: I don't exposed myself that much on these platforms unless the stories that I have shared available for everyone here. So bear in mind that I HAVE NEVER EVER REVEALED MY NAME to anyone I don't or barely know as I can tell that they would be able to find me by only 'google' the name (regardless they would or not). In this case, it happened.

Side Note 3: I can't tell everyone of the current situation. It's a very much sensitive. So hereby, I emphasise again that you have been communicating with other person all this while. Not me. That's the truth. I repeat. NOT ME.

 

I guess this is the best way of me explaining everything without hurting anyone or anybody involved.

 

Again, I apologise.

 

 

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Ramadan Kareem

Hoping for Lailatur Qadr

It is 26th Ramadan of this month.

How time flies. We are finally towards the end of Ramadan 1441. Hoping for Lailatur Qadr. 

Well, I have initially to get everything organised and planned again after being in the house for quarantine after one or two weeks the PKP 1 was enforced. How I write my thesis, doing my daily routine stuff and even got myself to buy some groceries ( I went twice only) are just need to be reorganised.

There were days that I got bored and I was literally doing nothing let the days just passed that way. Too bad if things could not be handled well especially with this new norm of life. You don’t want to end the days without your planned activities.

New normal of life...

That all everybody has to practice and live with it perhaps for several years ahead.

Despite of the current occasion happening in the world right now, we all are relying upon the best of our life. Here comes to the rescue...

Ramadan Kareem as the light in the darkness..

A month that full of blessings.


Like everyone else, I am also hoping that my Allah will grant my 'doa' and everything will go fine and well...

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Catching Up an Idea

Another two days more before March ends. My daily routine has been really amazing as I can spend most of the times with my family even before this MCO period. I decided to stop all my writings after I presented my proposal on the 3rd of March 2020. I spent the weeks afterwards by watching movies on my laptop, listening to music on the playlist and spent the time with my family.

Nothing much changes even on this MCO period. At first, I was scared like everyone else does even until now. Who does not? The whole world scared of this pandemic. But, life goes on. At one point, I wake up every morning continue my daily routine, as usual, and there I am feeling bored. Hahahaha. 

Wash, Cook, Eat, Sleep and Repeat. 😂

Especially on this MCO period. No chances of being out even for a while like I did before. I do not even go out buying groceries at Bataras. Heheheheh. The last time I went out was about 15 days ago. 

The weird thing about this is I started to miss my thesis, reading my journals and doing my writings. Hahahahhaha.

And the challenges part is to catch up on an idea in getting this started again. Not that it is a matter of its difficulty but it is rather a dilemma to choose between two things(options left) to start writing the thesis. A thorough reading comprehensively and precisely is needed to get rid of this dilemma. 

A good thing about this is I started to read the journals, checking up my proposal, focusing on the correction that has to be made very soon as I don't want to waste much time on this MCO period.

And it is time to start again....

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Stay at Home

The Movement Control Order (MCO) has been extended until 14th April 2020. It was first enforced by the government on the 18th of March 2020 for 2 weeks. Most of the people scared and panicked. Some of them started to do 'panic-buying' when it was first became hit of Covid-19 second wave. 

I still remembered the day I went to my last class on Wednesday. It was on the  11th of March 2020. At the time, the news about the Covid-19 was everywhere on TV and I could see some people were really aware and concern about it. Ironically, I was started to feel scary and worry that when I had to go to UMS for the next day on Thursday to get my report of PD I straight away went to the office with the hope that I did not take much time for me to be there. Unfortunately, the person I dealt with was not around and I had to come back for the next day.

I did not want to come back on the next day. Hahahaha. 

I just wanted to stay at home and did not have any plan to come to UMS for the time since I did not have class next week after. But I had to. Then, I went to UMS on Friday and got my report of PD. I was with my parents and my brother. We went to Tg Aru afterwards, bought 'Cendol' and 'Cucur' then straight away went home. While we were there at Tg Aru, I could see people lined-up at the counter with their trolley filled and full of foods. It was actually 'panic-buying'. That night, the news about it went aired. It happened when there was one case of positive Covid-19 announced by the official state. Then only I recalled the incident at the supermarket at Sunny, Tq. Aru I saw earlier.

Only then, I have been at home for 15 days and still counting at this MCO period.

 
So what I have been doing while at home? 

Well, nothing much. The first one week was more on adapting to the current situation. I am sure everyone was shocked and frightened a bit. However, things got better from days to days. Everyone is praying hard with the hope all will fine and back to the normal.

As a Muslim, I pray to Allah S.W.T that this pandemic will be over very soon. May Allah S.W.T protects us at this world from any harms or diseases. 

Allah The Most Gracious and Great, protects and bless us.

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It is okay. Allah the best Planner!

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It has been a long time...

A lot of things have been happening these past few weeks. But this is another story that I choose to share with everyone here.

Been almost 7 months already since I first enrolled. I thought everything was fine but it didn't turn out like I expected. I've been reading others' experiences bout this all this while and now it happens to me. Everybody is doing their path differently. Some people would enjoy the process while others wouldn't for their own reasons. So is my study.

I never regret for such occurrences (without going into details). Honestly, I just sad and annoyed. But it happened already.

One didn't help me at all and it is hurt. I know what the rules and regulations is. When one didn't choose to help for whatever reasons there might be, then nothing I could do about it. What more I can say..

Some people just don't even care. And they will never ever be. 

 

It is hurt to be there watching unwanted scene yet I could not do anything bout it. I believe they also have their own stands on this. Many things have to be considered. Especially when it comes to a sensitive matter. 

I learnt from it. I take my part. That's a learning process. I'm glad that I express it here where I think this is my best medium and channel for me to convey my thoughts.

 Everything happens for reasons. Though I am hurt. 

  La Tahzannn. InnallahaMa'na! Ada HikmahNya.

 

" When you feel heartbroken & disappointed because things don't seem to make sense, put your hands up & talk to the Almighty. You don't need words if the hurt is too much. Speak silently from your heart. He made it. He will surely mend it " -Mufti Menk-

 Side Note 1* I have just updated this post. Have had this post published earlier about this afternoon. Yes, I had. I have been reading this old post since afternoon, right before Asar and would decide to return to this post again as I had to edit some words afterwards.

Side Note 2* Ironically, as I returned to this page just right after Asar, everything was actually unpublished. (I guess this has had to do with the Blog Apps on my hp) They were all drafts. I am surprised. Some of the write-up were missing. Only very raw drafts left that I had to rewrite and built up my thoughts again.

Side Note 3* My earlier post was not that really bad, but I somehow expressed that I really sad and disappointed. I guess those words were not suitable for future readings. Indeed and Surely ALLAH has the best plan! " Fabiayyi 'ala irobbikuma tukazzibannn"......

Side Note 4* The quotes above express the feelings I have had now and the best quotes that extremely comfort me the most.


*Pinned post. Last updated on the 02nd March 2019*

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Ceritera of Her shoes

 

Malam-malam macam ni pun aku menulis. Penat masih pulak tu.

Tapi tu lah ada kejadian petang tadi. Allahu. 

Aku datang awal tadi. Sejam sebelum jam 2. Aku jalan la gerak sana sini situ. Dalam kawasan yang sama. Lepas tu aku duduk. Sekali aku bangun aku tengok kaki. Pergerakan aku pun lain macam.

Kasut aku ada masalah rupanya. Bahagian bawah dia terbuka. Habis lah. Sudah tu aku mahu buat macam mana?

Lawa kasut aku beli. Kasut formal bertutup litup kalau berjalan pun bunyi 'taktaktak'. Hahahaha. Pun boleh la bunyi dia tu. Mahal pula aku beli tu. Tengok2 jadi macam tu. Jadi macam mana la mahu buat? Aku tengok jam. Awal lagi. 1.15 macam tu.

Ndak boleh jadi ni. Aku keluar la. Banyak pula orang diluar. Nasib la gelap. Jalan pun berheret. Ndak pasti la pulak kalau orang perasan dekat luar tu. Habis la. Hahahah. Tapi pintu yang aku keluar tu terus menuju dekat tangga tu. So ada la 2 3 orang duduk tengah membaca. Tapi ok la. Dorang nmpk macam ndk nmpk..(Entahlah) Hahahah.

Sudah tu aku turun la dekat tangga tu aku fikir ndakkan la jalan berheret macam tu dekat tangga. Aku buka juga last2 jalan lalu depan budak2 dekat level bawah tu. Lain subjek. Baju engineering la mcm tu. Selamat. Hahaha.

Sampai yg bawah tu aku redah ja la sekumpulan kontraktor2 sana tu. Limpas  berkaki ayam.  Nasib juga kereta parking belakang. Macam aku ada gut feeling ni. Tu yg parking belakang. Hahahaa..

Aku cari la kasut dalam kereta tu. Mcm ada bah aku punya kasut formal. 

Sebab aku suka simpan kasut dalam kereta. Hahaha.

Tapi itu lah. Kasut tu sudah kena bawa naik kali. Sikit aku nangis tidak berlagu. 😭😭😭 Syukurlahhh ada aku jumpa sepasang kasut ni. Tp bukan kasut aku. Aku pun pakai ja lah. Malas fikir.

Aku confident ja berjalan dalam tu. Macam lagu enjit2 semut. Astaghfirullahalazim..Pencemaran bunyiiiiiiiii. Hahahahah. Aku pun control berjalan. Ndak bole jalan laju. Adoiiii... Lucu betul.

Pengalaman. Habis aku mahu buat mcm mana kan. Aku pasrah la. Aku confident ja. Demi mencari beberapa orang ni. Sampai ke situ (tempat tadi) exploration aku.. Jauh. Sampai aku lalu tepi pun sesetengah tu ndak perasan. Khusyuk betul tu.  Ok la kan. Heheheh. Paling2 pun aku tanya. "Ok ka".. Syukur lah kalau ok. Tp exploration tu payah juga. What to do? Life goes on.  Yang penting all went well. Alhamdulillah.

Malas aku fikir masalah. Hahahahah.

You got me, right?.. If you are young and read this.. When you reach my age later.. Mana you mahu peduli negative vibes disekeliling. Especially when you are dealing with human behaviour.

Aku mahu happy2 hour ni. Fokus research and mahu tulis paper excited kan mahu pegi Terengganu untuk konferens. Hooorayyyy. Berjalan seja keja kami. Sightseeing bah. Heheheehhe.

Bah iyala. Aku mengantuk sudah mahu tidur..

Until then.. Bye

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