She is the happiest

Finally! I have finished my thesis! I am the happiest person on earth. Hehehehe. I cannot wait to obtain my doctorate, and now I am ready for the VIVA-VOCE!
 

It is exactly five years since I started as a doctoral candidate. Yes, exactly on my birthday, August 11th, 2018. I never expected my academic journey to be this way, knowing that what I had expected over the years had been burdensome, challenging, and fouled up with all the obstacles that sometimes did not turn out as I thought.

Some things could be too sensitive to be voiced out even if I want to express them out loud. While some other things are just better left unsaid. However, at the same time, I could not hide what deep down inside my heart is. Honestly, I did not like most of it. And yeah…

Life is hard, but I move on.

And I always feel that I should have finished this earlier, like two years ago. Indeed, Allah is the best planner. However, things were not going really well. While I was about to finish my last stage of write-up, I then fell sick and had to be admitted to the hospital. I was not fond of it at all. I mean, who does? You do not like it, either. But I had to. 

Eventually, all is just fine since afterwards. I even lost almost several kgs because I have been dieting after Raya Puasa up until now. Being healthy and stunning is my top priority as of now. So, I will just continue my daily routine as usual.

It is also such a blessing to have my parents and siblings around, always supporting me all the time and every moment of it which I believe some people don't have the same privilege as I have. My friends have also always been supportive, and we have each other to be going through all these obstacles. We can do it! Hehe.

And you know what, unexpectedly, another month to go before we end this semester with the students. Even though it is only for a short semester, my students and I enjoy the classes and try to finish those syllabuses before the final exam. Moreover, I am hoping for the best…

Last but not least, it is my birthday today. On sayyidul ayyam. Alhamdulillah for everything. Hoorayyyyy. Again I am the happiest and I made lots of duua today😁. Thanks also to everyone for all the warm wishes.

It's been a while tho. While I am waiting for Isyak's prayer, I take this chance to update my blog. And as usual, I will just straight away sleep afterwards. That is my daily routine sleep. I have been sleeping at early time every day ever since I was a kid. Even if I was busy with anything like work, I would still find ways to sleep early. If Isyak is around 7 p.m., then my sleeping hour is just after 7. It's kind of hard for me to wait until about 8 p.m. to perform Isyak prayer cause I sleep early, right. Even now, I have been yawning again and again. You just don't have an idea that I can sleep as early as 6 p.m., especially during my period. Ya.. That's how it is.

I still recall when I was in the hospital (nothing serious), I told the HO the next morning that I hadn't slept the night before. But he kept quiet. It was not because I did not sleep, but I just could not. I was adapting, right. I never thought that I would be there that night. It was so scary also. Yeah.. it is not a hotel or resort. That's why.. That only happened on the first night. Everything went well the next night and afterwards. And I don't think I would want to talk about this hospital thing any further. And the MOs, HOs and Sp were all guys. Like most of them. I was shy and uncomfortable too. So yeah.. That's how it is. 

It is time to perform solah. Even tho I  feel so sleepy right now. Hehehe. So, until next time. Good night all..

Side Note 1: Actually, we got kenduri arwah for my late grandma at my uncle's. But I decided to not go. It is okay. Hope all is well.

Side Note 2: My bros bought me a cake. Hehehe. I'm so grateful. And also got another cake from kenduri. I am the happiest . Alhamdulillah.

May Allah grant our prayers. Amiin Ya Mujib.

"Ya Allah, Ya Basit. Uplift my heart for me, make my task easy, and remove the impediment from my tongue, so people may understand my speech".

To be continued….

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I Just Need a Moment

My journey of study....

What I like and dislikes... 

It's just a matter of time. When the right time comes later, I would definitely spill it here.

Ones who deserve my acknowledgement I would be the happiest talking about it and excluding those who are not worth mentioning!

I have been through a lot since I first registered as PhD student. I am doing fine and well because I have my family and friends as the best support system ever!

Whoever I don't mention later don't deserve my acknowledgement. 

Trust me. It would be a long story ever than other stories I have shared before. 

I am glad that I have this kind of platform to express my feelings. So, they know.

To be continued.... 

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Forever 20

 

It's my birthday today. Alhamdulillah. I am forever 20. Always young and sweet. Hehe.

I am feeling so loved when someone calls me 'hikmah' instead of 'eqma'. Look at the cake. Hehehehe. My friends love me so much. I know that. They know it as well. 😊

 

What about you? What would you address me by? Ok. Just call me baby. Hahahaha. Nah. I am kidding. Call me eqma. 

This was actually a pre-birthday my friends surprised me last Sunday. A day well spent. Amazing tho. Heheheh. A small celebration for me even it was for a while was really worth it. The very last time we met was on Hari Raya. Haha. Can't you see it? Time is thief. Hehehe. 

So Didi, Mel and Mag came up with this idea and prepared the presents for me. Come on. That's a must. Hahaha. Thank you bff anyway! We had so much fun indeed.

Having your family and friends' wishes are the most best feeling ever! Their prayers are essential and crucial.

Thank you everyone. We are all deserve happiness. 🤗

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Ceritera of Her Laptop

It has been exactly a year. Time flies so fast! I have been busy doing my stuff as I have not been updating anything yet up until today. I promised the last time that I wanted to tell a story of a few things such as my BFF's wedding, and how I missed our childhood moments but I just couldn't make it. That's somehow bad. But I will make sure  I would tell you a story about that perhaps later.

Now, let me tell you.

 

I am a person who always feels motivated as well as inspired by many kinds of things especially when it comes to academic stuff. I am exactly four years now of being a researcher and I have seen how my surroundings could impact my journey of study as a whole in many ways. I only allow positive vibes as part of my journey and eventually everything will be going fine and smooth. It works!

However, things have not always been as I expected. I have planned everything from the beginning but it just did not work out as I wanted. 

How could  I do my work? My previous laptop had broken while I was doing my research. I just couldn't believe that. 

 

It was a brand new laptop I bought early this February. And guess what? It was the second problem that went wrong after the first issue had been fixed and solved.

That was horrendous!

 

I still remember the first time I had to encounter that situation. I went to the shop to claim the warranty but they asked me to keep the laptop with them so they could fix it. But I refused. There was no way I would leave that to them. They then asked to reach the call centre and get further details on that issue. And I did.

Long story short, the technician came and fixed the problem with a new LCD screen. It took us a week to have the technician come. Been doing nothing for a week literally. It was not easy at all because I had to call a few technical support team from the HQ centre I dealt with. The problem was finally solved.

After a month of use, another problem came up. Long story short, the brand company agreed to replace a whole new laptop for me but I had to wait for a month because the shipping process took time to be shipped. I had to return the broken one as per agreement. A struggle getting that new laptop was real. It was not easy. Really. At the end of the day, I am happy to get a new brand laptop. Who doesn't? Right. And I have been doing my work since then. 

Last but not least, I am hoping for the best. I am bout to finish my study. Hope all is going well and fine. Insya-Allah.

Amin Ya Mujib.

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Young and Sweet. Only 17.

 

 It's my birthday. I am forever 17.

Never have I thought my bestie would surprise me this way during this pandemic. Haha. Usually, she will tell me directly of her intention to give me presents,  gifts or even planning for anything birthday related. Haha. Who could have known?

 

Thanks Jaja for the birthday cake! I appreciate it so much.

Alhamdulillah.

And these past few days have been surreal tho. This pandemic hit hard with new variant and all. How we wish everything would come back to normal, right. Yeah. New norm of live. Hope all is well.

Side Note 1: It is time for me to start again and focus on what I do previously. It's been a while since I last edited the thesis. Time to start again tho. 

Side Note 2: I wanna go out so badly, go shopping and sightseeing tho. No. Just not a good option for current situation. Home is the safest places among all for everyone now. I create activity, doing daily routine so I don't get boring.

Hope everything is well and back to normal again. Amin Ya Mujib.

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Jasmine Junior Journeys

 

Finally, It is out! Hoorayyyy. 

Hoorayy. It took me a while of having this new blog released. Finally, it is here! Take a look on my journey of study from the very beginning until the most recently throughout the years. A journey that has never been easy and hard I must say.

 

It's all about academic stuffs.

 

Here I am to share my journey to everyone and to those who are interested to pursue their studies ahead. Hopefully, it helps.

 

http://www.thejasminejuniorjourneys.blogspot.com/

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She & Her Mirror

 

 

Look. What I have just bought today?  

It's a white double-sided mirror with stunning stand and small compartment. 

I have been planning to buy this double-sided mirror for quite a while because I have the previous one broke and cracked. I didn't plan of buying this at first place. While I was searching for my bestie's birthday gift then I saw this mirror that happened to be exactly next to it. It took me a while to decide whether or not buying this mirror. Coz I am planning to come over again by next week. But I don't think I can make it and I ended up buying this for myself anyway. Haha.

 

I love the fact that it's moveable, double-sided, beautiful stand, detachable, have small compartment and indeed gorgeous in white colour.

 

And I obviously fancy this mirror. It's lovely. Isn't it? Heheheh. Definitely not as same as I have this beforehand. 

 

I even told everyone in this house of me buying this mirror. And I am happy telling the whole world of me getting this. Hehehe.

 

Side Note1 : My mum and I like beautiful things, accessories, gifts, souveniers and stuffs. We are both love going to Kaison and Mr.Diy finding those stuffs mentioned. So is my elder sister, Kak ija@Kija. Yahhh. We have something in common and share the same interests. Hehe.

Side Note 2: I can't wait to meet up my bestie tomorrow. Hope all is well and smooth. I have not been out for quite some times and I am looking forward to it. My friends have also been busy doing their work and stuffs. I know, right.

Side Note 3: I have one semester left. And February is going to over in two days more. Our class schedule has not been released yet. I am expecting that by this coming Monday. I don't know how the f2f class would be during this pandemic. Students are expected to come in by this 1st March. The classes are still conducted via online and we will see the flow.

Hoping for the best.

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That's not me!

Been really a while tho. I just found out about something that I am really shocked about.

 

Really. I am shocked. 

I still remember those days the first time I set up my account on both Researchgate and LinkedIn platforms where people can really find the info about someone by only 'google' their names. I decided to have one for the purpose of networking. I knew the consequences of having those accounts with my real name on it. Finally, it happens.

But this is another story that is just related to each other (I can't reveal too much about this. This is sensitive issue).

Please, please and please bear in mind that..

I do not belong to any other groups on any social media platform with any reasons and agenda of the groups created be it religions, politics, sports activities' matters and the list goes on.. via (WhatsApp, FB, IG, Twitter and etc.)...

Nor do I involve and text any kind of messages with anyone or anybody in that particular groups that you or they have created and added.

 

And this is real. I have nothing to do with you or them. At all.

 

My apologise. I don't mean to be rude but I don't think that I have the time to text someone I don't know or reply the text of them all. And I am not even interested to know each of them for whatever reasons there could be. 

And I hope the above matter explains.

 

I don't know you, I don't know them and I have got nothing to do with you or even them. Trust me.

 

So, if you happen to be here and see this, please... believe me. 'That's not me'.

Side Note 1: I have never revealed my link of blog on any other media platforms except Researchgate, LinkedIn, Facebook, Instagram and WhatsApp. In other words, people can find me only through these platforms. Please be noted that my blog link provided on WhatsApp only can be seen by my contacts.  I don't really like to be in groups on WhatsApps. You have got to believe me on this. I am not even a silent reader in certain groups.

 

Side Note 2: I don't exposed myself that much on these platforms unless the stories that I have shared available for everyone here. So bear in mind that I HAVE NEVER EVER REVEALED MY NAME to anyone I don't or barely know as I can tell that they would be able to find me by only 'google' the name (regardless they would or not). In this case, it happened.

Side Note 3: I can't tell everyone of the current situation. It's a very much sensitive. So hereby, I emphasise again that you have been communicating with other person all this while. Not me. That's the truth. I repeat. NOT ME.

 

I guess this is the best way of me explaining everything without hurting anyone or anybody involved.

 

Again, I apologise.

 

 

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Ramadan Kareem

Hoping for Lailatur Qadr

It is 26th Ramadan of this month.

How time flies. We are finally towards the end of Ramadan 1441. Hoping for Lailatur Qadr. 

Well, I have initially to get everything organised and planned again after being in the house for quarantine after one or two weeks the PKP 1 was enforced. How I write my thesis, doing my daily routine stuff and even got myself to buy some groceries ( I went twice only) are just need to be reorganised.

There were days that I got bored and I was literally doing nothing let the days just passed that way. Too bad if things could not be handled well especially with this new norm of life. You don’t want to end the days without your planned activities.

New normal of life...

That all everybody has to practice and live with it perhaps for several years ahead.

Despite of the current occasion happening in the world right now, we all are relying upon the best of our life. Here comes to the rescue...

Ramadan Kareem as the light in the darkness..

A month that full of blessings.


Like everyone else, I am also hoping that my Allah will grant my 'doa' and everything will go fine and well...

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Catching Up an Idea

Another two days more before March ends. My daily routine has been really amazing as I can spend most of the times with my family even before this MCO period. I decided to stop all my writings after I presented my proposal on the 3rd of March 2020. I spent the weeks afterwards by watching movies on my laptop, listening to music on the playlist and spent the time with my family.

Nothing much changes even on this MCO period. At first, I was scared like everyone else does even until now. Who does not? The whole world scared of this pandemic. But, life goes on. At one point, I wake up every morning continue my daily routine, as usual, and there I am feeling bored. Hahahaha. 

Wash, Cook, Eat, Sleep and Repeat. 😂

Especially on this MCO period. No chances of being out even for a while like I did before. I do not even go out buying groceries at Bataras. Heheheheh. The last time I went out was about 15 days ago. 

The weird thing about this is I started to miss my thesis, reading my journals and doing my writings. Hahahahhaha.

And the challenges part is to catch up on an idea in getting this started again. Not that it is a matter of its difficulty but it is rather a dilemma to choose between two things(options left) to start writing the thesis. A thorough reading comprehensively and precisely is needed to get rid of this dilemma. 

A good thing about this is I started to read the journals, checking up my proposal, focusing on the correction that has to be made very soon as I don't want to waste much time on this MCO period.

And it is time to start again....

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Stay at Home

The Movement Control Order (MCO) has been extended until 14th April 2020. It was first enforced by the government on the 18th of March 2020 for 2 weeks. Most of the people scared and panicked. Some of them started to do 'panic-buying' when it was first became hit of Covid-19 second wave. 

I still remembered the day I went to my last class on Wednesday. It was on the  11th of March 2020. At the time, the news about the Covid-19 was everywhere on TV and I could see some people were really aware and concern about it. Ironically, I was started to feel scary and worry that when I had to go to UMS for the next day on Thursday to get my report of PD I straight away went to the office with the hope that I did not take much time for me to be there. Unfortunately, the person I dealt with was not around and I had to come back for the next day.

I did not want to come back on the next day. Hahahaha. 

I just wanted to stay at home and did not have any plan to come to UMS for the time since I did not have class next week after. But I had to. Then, I went to UMS on Friday and got my report of PD. I was with my parents and my brother. We went to Tg Aru afterwards, bought 'Cendol' and 'Cucur' then straight away went home. While we were there at Tg Aru, I could see people lined-up at the counter with their trolley filled and full of foods. It was actually 'panic-buying'. That night, the news about it went aired. It happened when there was one case of positive Covid-19 announced by the official state. Then only I recalled the incident at the supermarket at Sunny, Tq. Aru I saw earlier.

Only then, I have been at home for 15 days and still counting at this MCO period.

 
So what I have been doing while at home? 

Well, nothing much. The first one week was more on adapting to the current situation. I am sure everyone was shocked and frightened a bit. However, things got better from days to days. Everyone is praying hard with the hope all will fine and back to the normal.

As a Muslim, I pray to Allah S.W.T that this pandemic will be over very soon. May Allah S.W.T protects us at this world from any harms or diseases. 

Allah The Most Gracious and Great, protects and bless us.

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